Sunday, December 26, 2004
xcountry
after camp, i was really beat and yea, i love xcountry to bits! right down to its perspiration it gives. i just wanted camp to go on till sch starts! or prob we can even form an mgx boarding sch only for all crossies and no one else =D woohoo! boy oh boy. so fun! well that was how much i love x.
there's trg tmr and i'm getting back one of those *darn trg tmr* feelings i used to feel in sec1. sigh i shldnt really be posting it on the web for all the juniors to read it right? but i feel that i shld share what i'm going through now. uhh..maybe it's not too good i guess. shldnt demoralise my adorable juniors =D but i'm seriously dreading e route tmr. i mean like, running the 1st part of the 1km in and out, no prob mo! but once i see the entrance of e northern route, SHOOTS! haha.. i really wonder why i bother to put in so much effort each time during trg. or why i even bother coming down for trgs. or why, i joined xcountry when mr ng asked me and a few others to join.
i rmb telling christine that i rock. i totally rock man. i actually joined a KILLER cca and put myself on the pressure, at every trg. like actually, what's the pt? i can just quit and whoopiee! freedom kinda thing. but i guess i actually stayed on and pulled through all by the grace of God. with him, who shld we fear.
and i guess those who went for camp, u guys still rmbed what i shared right. abt me during sec1 life. (woah, i TOTALLY screwed it man) i had a whole long script typed in my head and i was so ready to shoot off and give an inspiring speech which will leave u guys in awe. then i can stand up and shout," the Lord is my strength!" and be hero.
but what happened when i opened my mouth? ok nth bad really happened. i gave an account of my sec1 life and suddenly...CRAP. what am i supposed to do now kinda thing. cos i lost that script typed in my head in my thoughts. so what soon happen was, i started ranting off. i cant rmb what i said at the end. i was just trying to talk and talk, while i searched my mind for that wonderfully made script. but i was just panicking la. ok so i ended by saying some really crap sentence. then yea *nods head* i'm done?! stop looking at me! so i guess my fantasy was gone..what a waste man.
but now, i actually realise, all these fantasies abt trying to impact other pple's lives with my oh-so-great-words are actually nth. what i truely want, is to impact myself with me and God's help. at least now i know what's really good for me. the Lord prob made me lose that script with wonderful words in my memories, cos what he really wants, was to touch me. and it worked.
anyway, for those who cried during their sharing, i can tell that god really spoke to u guys! u might not have felt it, but i'm sure he has. why else wld u cry while talking abt ur past? i'm very sure rachael has been touched. she actually whispered to me,"i cant believe i'm crying." no matter how small, insignificant or inappreciable u might FEEL, in the team or society, the lord loves u and can speak to others through u! he has a plan for each and every one of us. hey, realise that 3 pple cried at each session? heh..found that pretty amusing.
anyway yep! i'm gonna do my famous screwed up ending again. haha.. it kinda sucks right. e substance is like gonna explode but there i end off with some words strung together to make it so *blinkblink* that's so....nice...thanks...for sharing? yea that kind of thing. bahh..maybe i shld listen to my mum and take mass com! then i can speak vols and depths of speeches =D muahahaha..quit fantasising.
(crap i forgot what i wanted to say) aiyah! it's my fren's fault. u know priscilla tan my level in gb? she just called and was like ultra hyper. HELLOo!!! ok....BYE BYEEEE *hums and hang up the phone* so out of the blue
anyway, i wanna pray for the team that we may still be as bonded as ever during camp. and when the rest of the holidaying-cum-partying pple come back from their lac hols, bring them to the famoolii aka family. hahaha reminds me of shrek. "the king and queen of far, far, far away land. aka mum and dad." hahahah.. that guy sounds funny. gosh, it rhymes too! ok anyway, u guys, keep trg hard ya and rmb to cast ALL ur troubles to the Lord and rejoice in His name! in the name of the Lord, the troubles will have NO CHOICE but to leave and scram away from ur life =)
anyway, abt jen's inspiring 'speech', to the innocent, cute, sweet (ahem) sec1 kids, competitions aren't that scary!! haha.. jen's english is just PRO and is really...colourful. so chill abt competitions! actually they are fun man. besides the starting pt la.. gosh, i still rmb this yr when the starter guy was like, talking to us n basically, he was talking to himself. just that he must project his voice and make it sound like he's talking to us cos he doesn't want to be known as the weird starter then next yr no job or smth. but other than the freaky white line you'll see at turf city, the competition rocks!
right! the most upcoming event of the x comp. calender.. *drumrollssss*
date: 16th jan
venue: macritchie
time: very early in the morning, earlier than 7am
ok that's all i know. we can try to sign up tmr when we're there ya? i think. ok i'm going for dinnerrr!!! gonna chom chom chom my hokkien meeeeeeeeeeee. yay!!
take care, run well and God bless!
-tiff tan
[ `looked to the heavens for strength ]
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